【❤】19=12=2010

❤leRynn Jees.. wakawaka.. take photo with the bottle..❤

啦啦啦~\(≧▽≦)/~啦啦啦..最近进步了啊我..那种想他想到哭的感觉..慢慢释怀很多了..哈哈..对啊..分手是需要用练习的..伤口好了会比较轻松的..现在的我..在等着伤口慢慢愈合结疤..就算再碰触也不会再疼了..哈哈..天真的我..

做工存钱..穷的列..哈哈..很多咚咚要买啊..哎哟..真的是啊..还要减肥..肥死了~~~~今天..满意^^哈哈..买了很多表..很有满足感啊..虽然被气了很多次..哈哈..今天和婉仪去看皮包..美到~~每天和婆婆借钱去买..哈哈..还没赚到钱就用了一大堆钱..不该啊不该..=P

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背叛,被判

走过熙熙攘攘的街
回到冷冷清清的家
香烟已熄了，全世界也暗了
我坐在这里 像什么 像什么
要是勉勉强强的笑
不如爽爽快快的哭
空气凝结了 灵魂也隐形了
我是多余的 为什么 为什么 我不懂
背叛算是什么 被判做错什么
游离天堂地狱一层一层算甚么
上天保祐我吧 纵然星光暗淡
要做个勇敢的小孩
现在的你过得好吧
会有一点想起我吗
花蕊都开了 心不会掉下了
要好好活着 怕什么 怕什么 我不怕
背叛算是什么 被判做错什么
游离天堂地狱一层一层算甚么
上天保祐我吧 纵然星光暗淡
要做个勇敢的小孩
孤独没有什么 残酷没有什么
结局遍体鳞伤苦的累的没甚么
自怜是奢侈的 青春没有退路
我也不管
背叛算是什么 被判做错什么
游离天堂地狱一层一层算甚么
上天保祐我吧 纵然星光暗淡
也是个勇敢的小孩

rainy day^^

13-12-2010 Monday Rainyday

a super duper cold cold rainy day.. woke up bout 9.44a.m.. woke suddenly.. quickly prepared everything and walk to BCB.. wakawaka.. what a lucky day.. met uncle(shanyi's dad).. haha.. he sent me to BCB.. haha.. no need to tired again.. reach there.. shocked me that everyone was so confuse!! OMG..

after finished the daily job.. rest~~~ haha.. damn that the watches amount was not correct!! arrgg.. check check check.. stupid limited G-shock!! haha.. met huiying and zhirui.. chat a quite long time..

i dun like this day.. miss him as sudden.. drop my tears while listening to the songs.. i hate myself to be like this.. arrrggg.. why can't my brain be a formal pc..?? just press .. then clear the memories.. so confuse.. did i still love him..?? or just depent on him..?? i dunno.. but i knoiw i dun like the feel.. this made me mad!! chocolate!@!@!@!@!!!(just a gentle rudely scolded word)XD

chat with yuenxuan the night.. haha.. many thing can be chat.. quite interesting la.. i like yuenqin's eyes.. so beautiful.. sweetly and made me envy.. wakawaka.. actually they three sister are all pretty too.. wakawaka.. pretty gals^^

yesterday zhaoye said me became prettier..^^ wakawaka holohola.. happy^^

leRynnJeeS 12.12.2010^^

tired working day for today.. haiz.. too fancy la.. what a crazy day.. haha..happened many things today.. okay.. thats a long long story..?? wakaka..

woke up bout 9a.m.. acrually i set the alarm bout seven o'clock.. but i still sleeping til popo morning call me.. wakaka.. she call for waking me up.. so sweet la.. quickly wake up and prepare everything.. it is ran out of my mind.. cuz i dun have enough time!!!~~

arrrgg.. showering and dress up myself was already spend me 45 minutes.. wow.. miracle.. haha.. walking to pacific cuz that is no one can drive me there.. tired de lo.. borrow benson RM30(pls remember to give me the money back!!)..

took half an hour to reach there.. so far far away.. fuyoooo.. that got many functions today.. break dance conpetition and singing show game.. me busy for my work!! what a hardworking gal.. wakawaka..

met many frez today.. liangcen, changyu and szechen gave me a cup of milk tea.. nice la.. cuz it is free and really taste good.. haha.. we all very talkative lo.. talk at the game's shop.. then met zhaoye.. he bought a pair of wacthes(danopolo branded).. quite nice actually.. black stainer steel.. me like it la.. but dunno other people like or not.. RM500.. paid with nothing confuses or questions.. haha.. credit the card ang sign.. so cool..

have my tomyam mee hoon kuay for breaklunch(that is shortform for breakfast+lunch).. haha..
tasty tasty..^^ is anybody miss me today..?? i miss u guys.. haha.. play together and mad together.. wonderful moment..

ask my boss today.. that males frez more or female's frez more is better for us..?? the answer is .. correct!! both!! haha.. me learn to know some more gals frez then cuz the boy's frez is too much now..wakawaka.. oo.. met xiaofei today also.. he came out with his mom.. family time.. so nice..

my mom still at nepal now.. so cold was there.. hope she din get cold.. popo them at genting now.. wakau.. left me alone and gone.. jealous liao la.. haha.. i like to type.. i like to share.. cuz i like discuss.. guys.. find me out when u guys are free la.. got bored everyday d.. haha.. missing u..^^

what a totally not bad day..^^ toodles, good night and sweet dreams everyone.. love u..(*^o^*)

刚看了小舜的blog..<爱情就是如此让人卑微>..对啊..面对爱情..我没有资格说我是个好情人..我让一个爱我的人..到最后是那么如此的恨着我..对..我伤了他..很深很深..再多的对不起..也只是多余的敷衍品..永远不可能抚平那道已成烙痕的伤口..因为我的不诚实..我们成了最熟悉的陌生人..好多次想提起勇气找他..到最后就只有乖乖认命得分..我承认我懦弱没勇气..哈哈..因为我不觉得我还有资格去打扰人家好不容易换来的平静生活..

双子座的个性..注定的多变吗..??可我不否认我是很典型的双子座女生..个性多变..让自己和别人都捉摸不定..让我失去他..也是因为这样..我恨..那又怎样..这就是我..在事情发生过后才来后悔..一点作用都没用..我只是别人生命中的配角..注定上不了大舞台做主角..??也许吧..这样的..欺善怕恶的..我...

就算在怎样努力想忘记..发生就是发生了..已经烙在心里了..抹也抹不去..搽也搽不掉..教训一次就够了..永远不要重犯第二次..不然谁也不会同情可怜你..我的爱情..一次又一次毁在我手上..很好..现在..它..学会了和我差肩而过..我在左它在右..我在前它在后..就只有平行得分..不可能会相交..也不可能会面对面..

分手是需要联系的..??应该吧..有些人..承担不起更输不起..爱情这东西..其实很伤人..总被它弄得偏体鳞伤..痛了吗..??那就让自己休息一下..曾经那个幼稚的我..想过要做傻事..可是仔细想想..就算伤害了自己..一切就会重头来过..??还是时光会倒转..??拜托..永远不可能..我们只会让其爱着我们的人伤得更重更疼..不为自己..也应该为别人想想..我们没有权利要让自己行为去伤害别人..更要是关心我们的人..

爱情..我玩不起..更输不起..因为我不是那种敢爱敢恨的女生..别在我寂寞哭泣的时候说爱我..除非你真的给得了我幸福..幸福也不只是说说就算的..别随便说爱..除非真的给得了保证..保证以后会给我安定的生活..不求大富大贵..只求无忧无虑开开心心的生活..请对自己的爱情负责..也对你另一半的爱情负责..

就算believe..中间也隔着lie..
就算lover..中间也隔着over..
相信中有谎言..
情人终有终止..

最好的幸福..
是把你给记住..
最好的痛苦..
是想你想到哭..

有人说：
分手后不能做朋友..
因为彼此伤害过..
分手后不能做敌人..
因为彼此相爱过..

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如果可以回到从前
我会选择不认识你
不是因为后悔认识你
而是我承担不了
再次失去你的痛苦

grown..

好久好久没有写blog了..最近的我..变得有点不像我了..做工存钱..让自己很忙很忙..就怕自己停下来会胡思乱想..好郁闷啊..现在的我..努力的做工..努力的减肥..我要为了自己而活..虽然很像每次都只是说说将..我好想回到那时有他的日子..虽然已经不可能了..可是还是会发白日梦..我应该真的有点问题了..脑子开始要坏掉了..哈哈..谁来治一下我吖..(?_?)..这些日子听了很多歌(电脑店开的)..喜欢上了这几首歌..<分手是需要练习的>..<以前以后>..<我全都相信>......还有好多啦其实..一个月的时间..我真的长大了很多(爸爸说的)..开始独立了..他们可以放心让我出国了..认识了很多人..学会了很多知识..虽然有时微笑换来的是冷眼..可是总会在玩笑中把它忘得一干二净..学会了释怀..哈哈..学会了欺负人(可怜的钰惠)..学会了很多沟通技巧..哈哈..做工虽然很累..可是也很开心..至少那个时候的我不会让脑子<秀逗>掉..O(∩_∩)O哈哈~
**trouble is a friend.. i like it..^^

confuse..!!

好不容易挨完考试..结果现在就要烦升学..我到底要选什么啊..??设计..??商科..??国外..??本地..??选了想去的地方还得考虑到生活费等等的..好烦啊..T^T我好想好想读设计..可是家里又不是很支持..怎办啦..??哎哟..到底我要怎样选才会各方面都顾到..??谁来教教我啦..??是不是就只想自己要的就好..??arrggg..

pahang trip.. happy^^

06-11-2010
so excited.. haha.. pahang trip pahang trip..^^ having dinner with dad & mum.. chat bouut half an hour.. that's a long time that we din chat like this d.. dad fetch me to RW station and company me to wait the guys there bout 15 minutes.. == cuz there a blury guy said that they reach d(actually he want to said there reach kluang d).. shunyi reach there after me.. then the guys came lastly.. slow d lo.. hiaz.. dad went home and we start annoying at there.. haha.. we all became the focus there cuz too noisy.. haha.. everybody juz staring at us.. the stupid train delayed bout 15 minutes.. so 'best' la.. wow.. our gentle guys so great.. our seat was sat by couple of malay ladies.. the guys din asked them to leave.. wow.. perfect la.. lastly.. shiwei stand from kluang to pahang.. wawa.. awesome.. we reached there apprecially 2a.m.. sleepy la.. shiwei sleep as soon as he could.. haha.. too tired d.. after showering me sleep too..^^

07-11-2010
genius.. me & shunyi wake up bout 9a.m.. looking for the master.. gosh.. din the guys said wake up early..?? no!!! we went downstair and shiU's anut boughr us roti planta..^^ so delicious..=] haha.. we having it but left a lot(too full to finshed it==).. disturbed the guys.. haha.. me took a photo of their sleepmood.. surprise!! cuz vincent din sleep with shiU.. din they twins..?? confuse..== wake them up wake them up..^^ we took a rest and they guys keep onlining.. fainted.. wakaka.. we played basketball!! fun fun a lot.. there's lot of funny things happened.. so memorable..^^ the guys got a 'shoot match of far point'.. haha.. keep seeing they dumping and vincent is so.....(that's called 'qun' in cantonese).. haha.. but it can't deny that he is so cool.. lalalalala.. haha.. shiU hit by ball twice.. genius la him.. faint!! huan stepped my legs n shiwei fall on me.. actually it is so painful..T_T my spinal apprecially broken after playing it.. paint a lot ahhhhhhhhh!!
funfair funfair!! haha.. shiU fetched us to qianhui's hostel first.. we chat there quite long time.. haha.. photoing..^^ lenglui le..=] the guys fimaaly came(after an hour)==.. vincent keep disturbing qianhui there.. haha.. we went funfair ang qianhui them stayed to study(cuz second day got final form test).. haha.. there's two 'lagai' there.. haha.. there scared to play the big games.. first game:360* spirol.. haha.. my first time to play that.. a bit scare la.. closed my eyes the whole journey.. second game:.. haha.. me & shunyi succeeded cheated the guys to play gather.. haven't start yet then they keep saying want to go home.. haha.. me n shunyi laugh til no sound..^^ hahahahahahahahahah............. thrid game: 360* too.. me, shunyi, shiU, shiwei.. this time din scare d.. but keep laughing at shiwei.. he totally a funny guy..
yamchayumcha.. eight of us went by a proton wira.. so pity.. most of us was big size le.. not small small size d.. hiaz..== so genius us..
that's a perfect and memorable night there.. happy.. haha..

p/s: vincent said want to play poker card after back home but he sleep first that night..XD cuz driving a long ong journey.. thanks ya foe fetching us back..

08-11-2010
wake up early too. shower shower.. cuz me din shower the last night.. yucky.. so sticky.. shiU n huan also wake up d.. after showering.. the two guys fighting at bed.. haha.. huan lie on shiU.. so funny.. shiU me itchied huan.. haha.. he roll from east to west.. hahahahahahahaha.. wake shunyi up ang guys wake ohter guys up.. they pulled vincent's blanket tried to kacau him.. haha.. huan, shiwei and vincent fighting at there.. shiU stepped one more leg on them.. wakaka.. cutie.. breakfast breakfast.. we stayed at home until afternoon.. we packed our things and we walked to RW station after lunch.. take some photos there.. six of us come back ang shiU stay one more day.. damn.. there is too cold at train.. ahhh.. huan let me to hold his hand to serving warm.. haha.. ironman.. weisheng give shunyi played IQ test.. fainted.. i din even know.. bullish.. we wait at gemas bout an hour.. haha.. huan bought a lot of bread.. tasty tasty..^^ there's a lot ridiculous things happened.. we reached safely.. haha.. having dinner with shunyi's mum.. me laugh til almost crazy.. soooooooooooooooooooooo funny..^^


p/s: enjoy this trip a lot.. frenz.. i won't forget u all.. love u ya.. friendship forever..^^

好美啊啊啊啊啊啊..存钱存钱..XD

28-10-2010

明天的来临=我终于解脱了..
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊..
今天的高数..
没有很难..
可是很怕出来的成绩死到一塌糊涂啊..
哎哟..
希望没有辜负他们..
我真的尽力了..
谢谢小飞、欢、佑、小良、慎、致盛、盈......
谢谢所有教过我的人..
当然还有小舜啦..
哈哈..
谢谢你教会我"外分"..
考试真的有出涅..XD
真的真的很谢谢你们..
没有你们我的统考应该真的完蛋了..^^

明天的bookkeeping和电概..
哎呀呀..
还是不明白为什我当初会拿电概..
真的不该啊..
今晚就拼我的bookkeep..
电概就留在明天的两个小时..
好像在拿三十块来开玩笑这样..
算了算了..
读多少考多少..XD

还有今天的商业..
明明就没有很难..
可是我就是不会..
什么跟什么啦..
哎哟哟..
虽然妈咪说过死一两科没什么关系..
可是我死的都是商科啊..
夸张啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊..

惨了..
最近压力没地方发泄..
就打给婆婆讲电话..
结果他一直催我去读书..
我就拼命抓着电话不放..
哈哈哈哈哈哈..
最近的我真的很长气啊..
谁嫌电话前太多的话可以打给我..
我陪你慢慢讲..
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈..XD
~\(≧▽≦)/~啦啦啦
婆婆明天回来啦..
想她嘞..XD

咦咦咦咦咦咦咦咦咦咦咦咦咦咦咦..
毕业晚会应该是没有去了..
回家回家..
哇咔咔咔咔..XD
I MISS HOME......❤

"u" make me sick.. bt u all recovered it..

啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊..
可恶的经济啊!!!!!!!!!!!!!
正式宣布它已跳楼身亡!!!!!!!!!!!!!
好多题目都看不懂..
选了我的程度稍微看得懂的三题..
勉强扯了一大堆..
然后就是那该死的选择题和必答题..
哇老啊..
谁出题目的哦..??
想都没有想过会出那种咯..
夸张到我都不会做..
希望不只我啦..
不然就惨了..
幸好我的数学还活着..
我已经尽力去做了..
选择错了一两题粗心的..
不应该错的><
然后就是那个作答题..
没有算很难..
所以我把我会的都挤进去了..
希望不会辜负欢和小飞他们..

再说..
昨天真的是.............
早上起来发现小飞已经回了..
啊啊啊啊..
对不起啊..
害你被骂..><
sorry x 100000000..
然后就是准备和佑他们去吃早餐..
从八点等到九点..
下次拜托早早去吵慎起床啦..
好厉害睡啊他..
结果走来走去..
还是在海宝解决早餐..><|||
~\(≧▽≦)/~啦啦啦
我第一个吃完..
太不可思议了..
哈哈哈哈哈哈..
从来都是他们在等我的..
第一次第一次..^^
用餐完毕..
学校读书去..
做了好多数学啊..
最后一次考了..
加油吧我(虽然说已经考完了XD)..

发生了好多很好笑的事..
哈哈哈哈哈哈..
竟然有人在学校拍婚纱照..
那里美了啊..??
不明啊不明.............><
然后就是..
于珊把佑的鞋藏去花圃那里..
然后另外一只被vincent不懂放去哪里..
然后就是一连串的打闹..
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈..
好朋友就是该这样..
还真的羡慕..
然后添帅和根持来了..
更多笑点了..
首先是添帅和佳恩的追逐战..
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈..
很可爱啊他们..
在哪里追来追去..

喜欢和他们混一起..
因为羡慕他们的友谊..
就算有摩擦..
过后还是可以很好很好..
想和你们说..
真高兴认识你们..^^

统考!!!!!!!!!!!!!..T_T

统考开始啦!!!!!!!!!!!!!

今天考国文..

还好不会很难..

可是出来的成绩.....><

haiz..

明天的华文和accounting..

怕啊....

华文应该还好..

那个会计是难到~~~~~~

等等又要继续拼了..

很怕出来的成绩会很惨..

反正读多少明天就考多少吧..

哈哈..

明天小舜来家里住..

哇咔咔..

有人陪了..=)

然后去麦当当读书..

好久没去了啊..

我读书应该比较吵..

blek~~

期待~ing..

我的Mc chicken plain..

哈哈..

希望明天消费可以出吧..

教我数学啊..^^

今天心情不好..

一早起来就看到他..

很闷啊..

不懂要怎样..

走开走开..

考完试才来烦啦..

现在考试重要..

你滚一边先啊..

等考完试才跟你吵过..

你一定输我的..

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈..

咦咦咦咦咦咦咦咦咦咦咦咦..

今天没有星星啊..

讨厌啦!!!!!!!!!!!!!

gor啊..

你几时才要回来啊..??

每天看星星很惨的嘞..><

你快快滚回来啦..

听到没..??

读书去读书去..

神啊..

保佑我明天一切顺利吧..

还要保佑那几个理科的..

他们明天的物理也要顺顺利利考完..

大家加油..

+U+U..

p/s:和自己说的:小丫加油..不要再乱想了..听有没..??乖乖读书去..XD

leRnn Jees 【❤】..

i love stars.. cause gorgor asked me to see the stars when i miss him.. he said the stars won't disappear and it same as him.. protect me always although he is not beside me.. haha.. love him so much..^^

the sky is full of the stars.. such a shining and pretty night.. as the song--【twinkle twinkle little star.. how i wonder what you are..】gor.. i miss you d..

wakaka.. my favourite.. guess wat is it.. that's right.. strawberry!!! haha.. such a sweet n sour fruit.. so tasty..^^ yummy yummy=)

that's a senior said before: the taste of strawberry just like the 'puppy love'.. sweet but mixed a little sour.. haha.. but i don't even 100% agree it..XD

colourful buttons filled inside the bottles.. every different colour presentize every different emotion.. happy, sadness, glad, peace, annoyed......

which colour you are..?? to me.. violet is better..^^

2010·20·10

~\(≧▽≦)/~啦啦啦

2010·20·10..

一生人一次的特别日子..

希望身边的人都可以开开心心的啊..

\(^o^)/~..

难忘的早晨..

我应该是疯了..

七早八早竟然梦到不吉利的东东..

哇老啊..

本小姐竟然梦到爸爸被鬼抓去..

吓死我了啊..

害我不敢睡回去..

什么梦来的哦..╭(╯^╰)╮

害我怕到要死打给婆婆..

婆说烧香拜拜就没事了..

当然我也很听话的照做了呗..^^

我可不想我亲爱的爹地有什么事啊..

结果过后跟妈咪和公公说的时候..

她们也吓到了嘞..

对不起啦..

还你们吓了好大一跳..XD

读书读书..

等等读书去..

哎哟哟..

还有两天啊..

完蛋了完蛋了..

幸好妈咪没有给我压力..

哈哈..

她说尽力就好尽力就好..

爱死她了..

~\(≧▽≦)/~啦啦啦

不然我应该会疯掉啊..

身边的人都快读书读到"发高烧了"..

为什么我就成不了他们那样啊..??

最后一次了..

我也想发下"高烧"啦..

哥哥骂我神经..

哈哈..

还真的有一点啦..XD

好啦..

不哈拉了..

用功去..

嘿嘿..

和自己说加油..XD

╭(╯^╰)╮ → ~\(≧▽≦)/~

惨啊~~

最近的生活..

简直是日夜颠倒..

说真的..

有点搞不清楚自己到底在干嘛..

明明知道考试就要到了..

可是脑子里会一直出现不该出现的画面..

我真的快疯了啦..

伪装出来的快乐..

应该也装不久了吧..

可是至少爸妈不会担心啊..

真的好烦吖..

笨小丫..

快点醒来啦..

再不醒来就真的完蛋了啦..

我不想要再这样下去了..

考完试和他们去玩..

放松下心情..

希望有用吧..

今天的我要比昨天的我开心..

我发誓..

好啦..

要去睡觉了啦..

我可不想明天顶着熊猫眼和阿gor出去..

晚安咯..

照顾好自己啊..

和自己说的..

O(∩_∩)O哈哈~

我记得我爱过..

电台有人点播
播我记得我爱过
后视镜里的我
沉默话不多
目送你下车 上楼
紧握的蕾丝漂泊
你的脸一闪而过
知道一些线索
在这个时刻
我忍住没有问出口
我记得我爱过
哭着 要不回那些快乐
怕情绪失控着
怕我泪流成河
怕你说有些事勉强不得
我记得我爱过 也懂了
你感情上的转折
泪湿透了纸鹤
爱斑驳了颜色
而我的心被撕裂般拉扯
已经难以愈合
你说只是朋友
我配合的很难过
你眼神在闪躲
在这个时刻
还有什么你 没说
你低头擦指甲油
数着樱花有几多
画面感很温柔
我却心算着
你几次沉默
冰冷对我
我记得我爱过哭着
要不回那些快乐
怕情绪失控着
怕我泪流成河
怕你说有些事勉强不得
我记得我爱过 也懂了
你感情上的转折
泪湿透了纸鹤
爱斑白了颜色
而我的心被撕裂般拉扯
我记得我爱过
要不回那些快乐
喔~~
怕情绪失控着
怕我泪流成河
怕你说有些事勉强不得
我记得我恨过 也 疯了
开始自言自语着
喔~~
泪湿透了纸鹤
爱斑白了颜色
而我的心被撕裂般拉扯
已经难以愈合