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❤leRynn Jees.. wakawaka.. take photo with the bottle..❤

啦啦啦~\(≧▽≦)/~啦啦啦..最近进步了啊我..那种想他想到哭的感觉..慢慢释怀很多了..哈哈..对啊..分手是需要用练习的..伤口好了会比较轻松的..现在的我..在等着伤口慢慢愈合结疤..就算再碰触也不会再疼了..哈哈..天真的我..

做工存钱..穷的列..哈哈..很多咚咚要买啊..哎哟..真的是啊..还要减肥..肥死了~~~~今天..满意^^哈哈..买了很多表..很有满足感啊..虽然被气了很多次..哈哈..今天和婉仪去看皮包..美到~~每天和婆婆借钱去买..哈哈..还没赚到钱就用了一大堆钱..不该啊不该..=P

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背叛,被判

走过熙熙攘攘的街
回到冷冷清清的家
香烟已熄了，全世界也暗了
我坐在这里 像什么 像什么
要是勉勉强强的笑
不如爽爽快快的哭
空气凝结了 灵魂也隐形了
我是多余的 为什么 为什么 我不懂
背叛算是什么 被判做错什么
游离天堂地狱一层一层算甚么
上天保祐我吧 纵然星光暗淡
要做个勇敢的小孩
现在的你过得好吧
会有一点想起我吗
花蕊都开了 心不会掉下了
要好好活着 怕什么 怕什么 我不怕
背叛算是什么 被判做错什么
游离天堂地狱一层一层算甚么
上天保祐我吧 纵然星光暗淡
要做个勇敢的小孩
孤独没有什么 残酷没有什么
结局遍体鳞伤苦的累的没甚么
自怜是奢侈的 青春没有退路
我也不管
背叛算是什么 被判做错什么
游离天堂地狱一层一层算甚么
上天保祐我吧 纵然星光暗淡
也是个勇敢的小孩

rainy day^^

13-12-2010 Monday Rainyday

a super duper cold cold rainy day.. woke up bout 9.44a.m.. woke suddenly.. quickly prepared everything and walk to BCB.. wakawaka.. what a lucky day.. met uncle(shanyi's dad).. haha.. he sent me to BCB.. haha.. no need to tired again.. reach there.. shocked me that everyone was so confuse!! OMG..

after finished the daily job.. rest~~~ haha.. damn that the watches amount was not correct!! arrgg.. check check check.. stupid limited G-shock!! haha.. met huiying and zhirui.. chat a quite long time..

i dun like this day.. miss him as sudden.. drop my tears while listening to the songs.. i hate myself to be like this.. arrrggg.. why can't my brain be a formal pc..?? just press .. then clear the memories.. so confuse.. did i still love him..?? or just depent on him..?? i dunno.. but i knoiw i dun like the feel.. this made me mad!! chocolate!@!@!@!@!!!(just a gentle rudely scolded word)XD

chat with yuenxuan the night.. haha.. many thing can be chat.. quite interesting la.. i like yuenqin's eyes.. so beautiful.. sweetly and made me envy.. wakawaka.. actually they three sister are all pretty too.. wakawaka.. pretty gals^^

yesterday zhaoye said me became prettier..^^ wakawaka holohola.. happy^^

leRynnJeeS 12.12.2010^^

tired working day for today.. haiz.. too fancy la.. what a crazy day.. haha..happened many things today.. okay.. thats a long long story..?? wakaka..

woke up bout 9a.m.. acrually i set the alarm bout seven o'clock.. but i still sleeping til popo morning call me.. wakaka.. she call for waking me up.. so sweet la.. quickly wake up and prepare everything.. it is ran out of my mind.. cuz i dun have enough time!!!~~

arrrgg.. showering and dress up myself was already spend me 45 minutes.. wow.. miracle.. haha.. walking to pacific cuz that is no one can drive me there.. tired de lo.. borrow benson RM30(pls remember to give me the money back!!)..

took half an hour to reach there.. so far far away.. fuyoooo.. that got many functions today.. break dance conpetition and singing show game.. me busy for my work!! what a hardworking gal.. wakawaka..

met many frez today.. liangcen, changyu and szechen gave me a cup of milk tea.. nice la.. cuz it is free and really taste good.. haha.. we all very talkative lo.. talk at the game's shop.. then met zhaoye.. he bought a pair of wacthes(danopolo branded).. quite nice actually.. black stainer steel.. me like it la.. but dunno other people like or not.. RM500.. paid with nothing confuses or questions.. haha.. credit the card ang sign.. so cool..

have my tomyam mee hoon kuay for breaklunch(that is shortform for breakfast+lunch).. haha..
tasty tasty..^^ is anybody miss me today..?? i miss u guys.. haha.. play together and mad together.. wonderful moment..

ask my boss today.. that males frez more or female's frez more is better for us..?? the answer is .. correct!! both!! haha.. me learn to know some more gals frez then cuz the boy's frez is too much now..wakawaka.. oo.. met xiaofei today also.. he came out with his mom.. family time.. so nice..

my mom still at nepal now.. so cold was there.. hope she din get cold.. popo them at genting now.. wakau.. left me alone and gone.. jealous liao la.. haha.. i like to type.. i like to share.. cuz i like discuss.. guys.. find me out when u guys are free la.. got bored everyday d.. haha.. missing u..^^

what a totally not bad day..^^ toodles, good night and sweet dreams everyone.. love u..(*^o^*)

刚看了小舜的blog..<爱情就是如此让人卑微>..对啊..面对爱情..我没有资格说我是个好情人..我让一个爱我的人..到最后是那么如此的恨着我..对..我伤了他..很深很深..再多的对不起..也只是多余的敷衍品..永远不可能抚平那道已成烙痕的伤口..因为我的不诚实..我们成了最熟悉的陌生人..好多次想提起勇气找他..到最后就只有乖乖认命得分..我承认我懦弱没勇气..哈哈..因为我不觉得我还有资格去打扰人家好不容易换来的平静生活..

双子座的个性..注定的多变吗..??可我不否认我是很典型的双子座女生..个性多变..让自己和别人都捉摸不定..让我失去他..也是因为这样..我恨..那又怎样..这就是我..在事情发生过后才来后悔..一点作用都没用..我只是别人生命中的配角..注定上不了大舞台做主角..??也许吧..这样的..欺善怕恶的..我...

就算在怎样努力想忘记..发生就是发生了..已经烙在心里了..抹也抹不去..搽也搽不掉..教训一次就够了..永远不要重犯第二次..不然谁也不会同情可怜你..我的爱情..一次又一次毁在我手上..很好..现在..它..学会了和我差肩而过..我在左它在右..我在前它在后..就只有平行得分..不可能会相交..也不可能会面对面..

分手是需要联系的..??应该吧..有些人..承担不起更输不起..爱情这东西..其实很伤人..总被它弄得偏体鳞伤..痛了吗..??那就让自己休息一下..曾经那个幼稚的我..想过要做傻事..可是仔细想想..就算伤害了自己..一切就会重头来过..??还是时光会倒转..??拜托..永远不可能..我们只会让其爱着我们的人伤得更重更疼..不为自己..也应该为别人想想..我们没有权利要让自己行为去伤害别人..更要是关心我们的人..

爱情..我玩不起..更输不起..因为我不是那种敢爱敢恨的女生..别在我寂寞哭泣的时候说爱我..除非你真的给得了我幸福..幸福也不只是说说就算的..别随便说爱..除非真的给得了保证..保证以后会给我安定的生活..不求大富大贵..只求无忧无虑开开心心的生活..请对自己的爱情负责..也对你另一半的爱情负责..

就算believe..中间也隔着lie..
就算lover..中间也隔着over..
相信中有谎言..
情人终有终止..

最好的幸福..
是把你给记住..
最好的痛苦..
是想你想到哭..

有人说：
分手后不能做朋友..
因为彼此伤害过..
分手后不能做敌人..
因为彼此相爱过..

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如果可以回到从前
我会选择不认识你
不是因为后悔认识你
而是我承担不了
再次失去你的痛苦

grown..

好久好久没有写blog了..最近的我..变得有点不像我了..做工存钱..让自己很忙很忙..就怕自己停下来会胡思乱想..好郁闷啊..现在的我..努力的做工..努力的减肥..我要为了自己而活..虽然很像每次都只是说说将..我好想回到那时有他的日子..虽然已经不可能了..可是还是会发白日梦..我应该真的有点问题了..脑子开始要坏掉了..哈哈..谁来治一下我吖..(?_?)..这些日子听了很多歌(电脑店开的)..喜欢上了这几首歌..<分手是需要练习的>..<以前以后>..<我全都相信>......还有好多啦其实..一个月的时间..我真的长大了很多(爸爸说的)..开始独立了..他们可以放心让我出国了..认识了很多人..学会了很多知识..虽然有时微笑换来的是冷眼..可是总会在玩笑中把它忘得一干二净..学会了释怀..哈哈..学会了欺负人(可怜的钰惠)..学会了很多沟通技巧..哈哈..做工虽然很累..可是也很开心..至少那个时候的我不会让脑子<秀逗>掉..O(∩_∩)O哈哈~
**trouble is a friend.. i like it..^^